Sunday Reflection

It's been over a year since I have posted on this site.  I am just sitting here thinking how crazy my life has been and how different it is from what I ever had planned.  It is just a testimony to me that God is in charge of my life.  It is a testimony to me that I need to try my best to align my will with His.  I know that if I do His will that He will take care of me and my family.  I am reminded of the scripture in 3rd Nephi 13:28- 33 

" 28 And why take ye thought for raiment? Consider the lilies of the field how they grow; they toil not, neither do they spin;

 29 And yet I say unto you, that even Solomon, in all his glory, was not arrayed like one of these.

 30 Wherefore, if God so clothe the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is cast into the oven, even so will he clothe you, if ye are not of little faith.

 31 Therefore take no thought, saying, What shall we eat? or, What shall we drink? or, Wherewithal shall we be clothed?

 32 For your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things.

 33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you."

Heavenly Father knows me.  He knows my needs.  In all of my trials He has supported me and cared for me in innumerable ways.  He has blesssed me  and my family with things that we didn't even know we needed.   I am truly grateful.  

We will be having our 3rd child in just a few weeks.  Even though I feel the ill effects of the pregnancy and I know it's real...I am still kind of in shock that we are having another baby and I'm still trying to wrap my head around it.  I have been nervous about how much our lives are going to change....again.  I'm nervous about trying to care for everyone and keep myself healthy emotionally, physically, and spiritually.  Amidst these anxieties, the Holy Ghost reminds me of this scripture almost daily.  He reminds me how much Father in Heaven has taken care of me and carried me through my trials.  I have been thinking lately about how when Kary had his stroke I was 37 weeks pregnant.  I had been feeling tired and miserable before his stroke and thinking back on it I am amazed that I was able to make it through without having an early delivery with the stress I felt at the time. God gave me the strength and the courage I needed to carry on.  There is no doubt in my mind that He gave me the strength to endure that time in our lives.  I could not have made it through without His help.  I feel to exclaim as Ammon did in Alma 26:12, “Yea, I know … as to my strength I am weak; therefore I will not boast of myself, but I will boast of my God, for in his strength I can do all things..."  

So yes, things will be hard when the baby comes but I know God will help us through just as He has always...every single day of our lives... helped us through each day.  

Through this pregnancy I have been kind of a big whiner and mean and ornery.  I'm sick, I hurt, and I just feel miserable.  And some days I really struggle staying positive.  Then I look at Kary and am amazed at how he endures patiently every day.  He can't see, he hurts all day long, he can't walk, he can't do any of the things he used to enjoy such as camping, driving, 4 wheeling, motorcycle riding, he can't run and play with his children like his heart yearns to do...the list goes on and yet he is so patient and kind.   I know that Heavenly Father has given him the strength to endure all that he endures.  I know it's so hard on Kary and sometimes it is really really hard to watch how he must suffer in so many ways.  But Kary's faith is firm.  He is a great example to me.  I'm grateful that Heavenly Father helps strengthen Him every day too.